Living with emotional eating is normal for me. As far as I can remember, I have always relied on food to be able to make it through the day without breaking down. I have always been overweight, and I was affected by severe obesity for much of my adult life. I reached out to everyone and tried everything I thought might help me, even the most exotic techniques. Unsuccessfully.

As I now work with people who also have a difficult relationship with food, I have noticed a few patterns many of us seem to share.

It Is Impossible for Me to Lose Weight

This is the story I used to tell myself. After all, why shouldn’t I believe this? I had excellent reasons:

I have too much weight to lose.

My lifestyle is not compatible with a diet plan.

It simply never worked all the times that I have tried.

I know some have found a way, but there is no way for me.

My weight has always been a problem. I was six years old the first time I was placed on a diet. My childhood was definitely not perfect. Adulthood has not been either. But honestly, who does not feel misunderstood? Who never gets hurt? Many people don’t end up affected by severe obesity. Why do I?

Emotional eating is a form of compulsive eating. I eat when I am not hungry, and I cannot stop. Emotional eating is also a coping mechanism. I eat in response to positive and negative emotions. Food is a mood regulator in itself, and I increase what I eat to compensate for what I feel.

Eating is a refuge that allows me to avoid uncomfortable emotions. My well-being depends on what I am eating and the size of my plate. A difficult day at work? A comfort-food dinner will help me get over it. A conflict with a loved one? Ice cream and a bag of cookies allow me to keep my cool. A restless night worrying about a life issue? A bag of chips usually soothes my anxiety.

Experts, Doctors, and Professionals Seem Unable to Help Me

Yes, I do gain weight because I eat too much, and I don’t move enough. Every expert I meet logically tells me that the solution is to eat less and move more. Duh. Wow! Like I never thought about it myself. The thing is: I can’t. When cravings hit me, there is no way I can resist them, and no one provides me with efficient guidance to solve that dilemma. I am alone with my pain—and with my shame.

I don’t enjoy overeating. I don’t like how I feel when my cravings are finally satisfied and leave me alone, only to be replaced with guilt. I don’t like being overweight. I tried many diet plans. Obeyed to the letter the advice of a dozen nutritionists. I left several sports coaches bald from pulling their hair out. I even went through bariatric surgery. I did lose some weight … for a while. And gained it all back, with some extra, just as quickly.

I learned several healthy ways of eating and safe ways to exercise. I know a ten-minute method to manage my anxiety. I am involved in several fun activities to keep from getting bored, and I own many weight-loss meal plans. It is important, but it is not enough. These methods never worked for me.

Emotional Eating is Out of My Control

To me, emotional eating feels like having a friend in my stomach. I start off with this friend, thinking they have my best interests in mind. They are going to help make my life better, and they are going to be there for me when other friends might not be. When in a really vulnerable position, I latch onto this friend. As I spend more time with them, I become bigger and bigger, and my life gets smaller and smaller. My friend gets meaner, and their demands get harder. Yet, I am trapped with them and feel as if I cannot survive without them. I can’t let them go.

One day, I find myself basically as big as two people and living half a life, denying myself a lot of the experiences that would bring me happiness and joy. It’s an awful way to live. It’s a way so many of us live in silence, thinking maybe it is normal.

Speaking Your Truth is the Way Out!

Today, I am not living with obesity anymore.

I stopped treating food as the villain. I faced my issues for what they were and made the decisions I was scared to make. I am finally able to stick to a healthy lifestyle, not as a primary change but as a consequence of my emotional eating recovery. I face every new day without carrying the weight of years of untold pain buried under food. When something upsets me today, I just have to deal with today. There is nothing to silence anymore, nothing to hide, nothing to keep control of, no friend to appease. I am at peace. Inner peace makes it so much easier now to stay on track and keep making healthy choices.

I know exactly how it feels to be stuck with emotional eating and many extra pounds. I know life and its challenges as an overweight emotional eater because I was one most of my life. I was still affected by severe obesity when my first weight-loss coaching client chose me to work on their weight issues. I could not understand why they would want to work with me, as I had even more weight to lose than they did! They simply said, “I want to work with you precisely because you are overweight. I know you can understand me.”

I indeed understood their point immediately. As I have since worked with many emotional eaters, it always strikes me how, even if our stories are different, our pain and how we deal with our wounds are the same.

In my own personal experience as an overweight person trying to lose weight and reaching out for professional help, I never felt understood. I visited doctors, nutritionists, dietitians, sports coaches, psychotherapists, and diet counselors. They were the experts, though it appeared none of them had weight issues. They did their best to help me, but their perception of what I was going through and what I needed to do to overcome my weight issues never matched my reality.

As I could never trust them to understand me, I never fully opened up either. I have discovered with my clients how simply being able to genuinely tell the truth about our situation makes a big difference. Being real and honest with ourselves about what we are truly going through is essential to a successful emotional eating recovery. I know how vulnerable it feels to open up totally and how difficult it can be, especially when we have not allowed ourselves to put our masks down for years, sometimes decades. That’s why when I work with other emotional eaters, I focus on letting them feel they can speak freely to me and will always be understood.

If you are unsure you are an emotional eater, you can take the quiz here.

Can you relate to my experience with emotional eating? Is yours completely different? Let us know in the comments.

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